THIS. Hahahahahahahahahaha.
Gotye - Someone that I Used to Know
But you didn’t have to cut me off, Make out like it never happened, And that now we’re nothing, And I don’t even need your love, But you treat me like a stranger, And that feels so rough
(Source: sevenohhseven)
How do you erase someone out of your life?
You get rid of everything that reminds you of him.
You erase his number.
You throw away his things.
But that won’t help erase all the memories it just helps you avoid some of the reminders.
And it doesn’t erase the pain.
The pain you live with, everyday hoping that it just wanes away with time.
You wake up wishing it’s gone or at least that some of it has diminished in some way.
Then you convince yourself you’re okay, that you’re better without him, happier even.
More often than not it seems you’re all good but it only takes one reminder to freefall into the loneliness.
Everyday you risk it, you fake it.
Until one day you wake up and you realize you’re done with the faking.
You’re okay and it’s real.
The pain is still there but it’s bearable and you’ve stopped blaming yourself for all you’ve lost.
You take comfort in the fact that you knew you deserved better and you stood by that.
Then you start waiting…
Waiting for that feeling, willing to start over again.
Made a deal to write a script in 3 months.
What the hell. Let the games begin.
Busted my old laptop. So got a new one. Meet Joe Gray.
Tried using Final Cut Pro for a project. $%*&%!@#$^!0#
Love my research groupmates. Research itself - not so much.
Last EVER block section. B is for Best.
SS. Cards = Happiness
Today got a cake from my lucky charm. Unexpected and Sweet.
Got this bottle of Bugnay wine at the beginning of this week. It’s called “Bonita”, supposedly for good luck. We’ll see how lucky it really is come april.
As a reward I got trashed the other night. Ganun talaga. It’s a thing. Hahaha.
Happy summmmmmeeeeerrrr!!!!!
This one time I painted a living room with a girl.
This was a handful of years back. It was about eight months before the huge, flame-out of a breakup. That day, though? That day we painted the living room? It was pretty uneventful. We painted my parents living room for $50 between us and a pizza. That was it. I think we watched Anchorman or something after that.
But it still holds as on of the most indelible memories I have. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not still in love, it happened, it was good, it ended, and we’ve both moved on. But I’ll never forget that day. Because it’s never, in the long run, about the grand gestures. You can fly across the world and show up on her doorstep with a rose in your teeth and a ring in a little velvet box but I can guarantee you that - more often than not - she’s going to remember the time you built the birdhouse in the back yard, or what have you, a whole lot more.
Life wasn’t meant to be taken in large movements. The next day will inevitably arrive, you’ll sleep, and the moment will have passed. But when you have a hundred thousand small moments, you can step back and appreciate the picture a lot more than metaphorically blowing your load on some grand moment that, in all honesty, look, you’re not Bruce Fucking Springsteen, you’re not going to be able to blow everyone’s mind every single night. You’re not Romeo and/or Juliet. There’s no reason to drink the poison together in some flame-out gesture. So that leaves us with the small stuff. It’s all about the detail.
That’s what love is. Attention to detail.
And the moment will end. And then things will get boring. And it might get a little quiet. And it might all end horribly. And you might hate eachother at the end. And you might walk away from eachother one day and never speak again. But that’s just how it goes.
But she’ll remember the time you held the door open for her on your first date.
She’ll remember the time you laughed at her impression of the landlady.
She’ll remember the time you stayed up all night that first time.
She’ll remember the small things a lot longer than the big ones.But everything ends. And I’ll tell you why you have to make the small things, the small moments count so much more:
One day, probably a while longer from now, when old age takes ahold of someone, she might just only remember your smile. Everything you ever did together, every second, every moment, every beat, every morning spent in bed, every evening spent together on the sofa, all of that - gone. Everything you ever did will be reduced to the head of a pin. She won’t remember your name. She’ll just remember your smile, and she’ll smile. She won’t know why. It’s a base, gut reaction. But she’ll smile, uncontrollably, and it will come from somewhere so deep as to know that you touched her on a primal, honest, and true level that no scientist, scholar, or savant could ever begin to explain. There is no more. There is nothing else. There is just this: She’ll remember your smile, and she’ll smile.
And you know what? That’s all that really matters in the end.
I’m officially crying.
Agreed. =)
First post in a long time. But fuck IT. This is my last summer before clerkship.
MUST. DO. EVERYTHING!
(Source: ima-wild-boy)
